I’ve always been tough on myself. I’m a perfectionist, a people-pleaser, and a lifelong misfit. Everyone has an inner critic – you know, that voice in your head that analyzes and casts judgment over your every action. Sometimes that voice can be helpful… but usually not. For years, I gave my inner critic more and more power until eventually she became my inner bitch. “This Means War” is about declaring war on that bitchy voice in my head that berated me and put me down.
"Hey you in the mirror, I hate that I hate you."
I started hating my body when I was 14 years old. I was just under 5’4” and hadn’t even broken 100 lbs when a boy at school told me I looked fat in a photo. While I wasn’t even remotely overweight, I remember I was wearing a big baggy shirt. The boy meant no harm – actually, it just occurred to me that he was probably awkwardly trying to flirt with me -- but that was a defining moment in my life. It was the culmination of 14 formative years of constantly seeing women portrayed in the media as only being beautiful if they were tall and extremely thin (and often objectified and hyper-sexualized, but that’s at least 3 other conversations). This standard was reinforced everywhere I looked, and became the impossible ideal that I would never live up to.
I’ll spare you the unpleasant details, but it has taken me years to heal from the subsequent decade of obsessive dieting and disordered eating. The saddest part is that there is nothing unique or special about my struggle. It’s so common that it's downright boring. This is the new norm.
"Words be my army, smile be my sword."
I’m taking my power back. And although I claim responsibility over my own thoughts and feelings, I don’t blame myself anymore. I blame society.
Now on the surface, things seem to be improving. You see more commercials and magazine ads featuring women with "real" bodies. And in these past few months, something has changed. Hordes of women are finally feeling safe enough to step up and publicly speak out against sexual predators. We are finally openly confronting the pandemic of sexual abuse and harassment, and this is barely scratching the surface of the problem.
Perhaps a paradigm shift is taking place. Maybe this is overly optimistic, but my dream for this song is that one day, in the future, it will be completely irrelevant.
"Tonight, this means war.”
Here’s what Indie Music Magazine wrote about “This Means War”:
"Dark, compelling and infectious, ‘This Means War’ should be on your TO LISTEN list.
Cage’s delicate vocal delivers lyrics which we can all relate to – self-doubt, insecurity and the constant struggle to feel comfortable in your own skin. It makes for a beautiful message wrapped inside a top class track which deserves to turn heads.
An excellent female singer-songwriter who has developed a powerful voice in every sense.”
Full article here: http://indiemusicmag.com/home/single-premiere-robyn-cage-this-means-war/